Looking for the middle way

Man its been awhile well here i am at a cross road im thinking theres only 1 way to go but theres actually many roads i could take but indont wanna take them alone anymore

well looks like its gonna be a cold winter

Things are Looking like fall it's getting colder i had to wear my peacoat the other day and that felt nice i forgot how nice it is to bundle up i enjoy the warmth of a jacket that hugs just right.

some Goals for this fall

I wanna carve a pumpkin i haven't done that for years and years sounds like fune =D

i want to find a way to make money with my mind rather than my hands

Learn to work in a group

I've always hated group projects relying on others contacting them trying to set up times to meet getting their work complied it's a pain but i know it's a necesary skill for the real world because to really change or effect anything you must work with not just a group but an effective group. and it all started with learning to communicate effectively.

I haven't juiced in a day theres been no water at my house it just got turned back on and we were elated hahahah dishes had piled up and the toilets didn't flush....it was getting desperate i had to shower at my friends houses for a few days hahahha SUXCKED!

lemme know if you've ever had the utilities turned off on you. and how rediculous that got hahahha

Too much stuff.

The trouble with this Thing that has become my life, since moving back from Malaysia, is that I miss the challenge and seeing new things. For everyone here everyday is a new and fresh but I'm caught in some kind of bad rerun. GroundHog day.

Options for escape:

1. Death lets just get that one out of the way first.

2. Los angeles Part 2.2 - I went to La for 5 days which was La 2.1 I saw all the homies and home girls did all that i wanted and almost didn't come back. Worst decision I've ever made. Oh well it happens. I felt like those 5 days was the beginning of the movie"JoE Returns to LA : Armageddon"

3. Escape to south america for a few months and see what happens

4. Apply to a new school and start a new life bringing only the fratnerity and what fits in my Fit. Fit is Go!

Theres also secret option number 5 but i don't know if i want to even think about it to me it sounds worse than death. DON'T go back to school and finish my degree instead get my electricians license and certification for installing solar panels and start doing that for a living and never leave the bay again. Lord Help Me.

Thanks for reading.

P.S. if you feel how i feels Holla at me we'll talk =)

All U Can Eat Buffet!

Hey whats up yall,

My family being Asian loves to go to buffets...one in particular sticks out in my mind.....Hometown Buffet. They serve basically any time of food you could want! Italian, Mexican, Chinese, America, and so on...forever and ever.

Now, when I was a fatass kid I loved them! But I've grown to actually dislike these places because they push people of the slant eyed persuasion to really try and get your moneys worth, you don't have to tell me twice to eat as much as asianly possible....

Recently here in Malaysia turns out they love buffets here too!

great.

And its pirate themed! I laugh to myself about the gimmick nature of this feeding hole. WHOO

Thinking back to this idea of buffets it HITS me!

Our world (not just america) is on an express train w/o brakes the whole planet is obsessed with excess.

We spend more money than we have to, just to eat more than we need to, just to get fatter than we should be, and get so full you can't move, just to crap it all out in a few hours. Do it all again another day whoo!

vicious cycle

But we love excess don't we?

Thinking a little deeper leads me to consider other aspects of this thing we call "society"

Everyone wants the excess but as the law of scarcity shows not everyone can have it.

This leads to poor people and rich people and everyone inbetween. The haves and have nots. Classes. Separation.

So many people say they wanna end World Hunger and Poverty but how can you end these things when everyone is chasing down the latest cell phones, eating farm raised salmon fed with wild caught fish.

does that even effing make sense?@! With attitudes like this it's never. gonna. happen. ever.

It's not atomic bombs or a super virus thats gonna be the end for us....we're gonna EAT our world up and it's not gonna have enough to give.

we're all chasing the dream...cars, big houses, vegas vacations, and all you can eat sushi bars.

Eating ourselves out of house and home sooner rather than later and it's AVALANCHING around the world in developing countries with HUGE populations; China, India, Southeast Asia....

As First world nations WE must be the ones to set an example of sustainability and respect for our planet and scarce resources. Our atittudes shape the rest of the world. Because we understand. Because we already know what is going to happen.

But your saying "ahh i don't wanna be no role model!"

....too bad.

Cause they don't give a shit out here.

they are just falling into the dream...just tasting it. Trying anyway they can to get it.

Without care for tomorrow.

But tomorrow comes...

It always does.

2011 New Zodiac Why It's never gonna change back.

If you were as shocked as I was about the zodiac changes then you've already either accepted your new sign or stood defiantly against it. I've now been Demoted from a proud LEO to a Shy Crustacean.

This is not acceptable.

Digging a little bit further I uncovered that the new 13th sign only appeared in 2009....thus causing a shift of signs.

I've deduced that your sign hasn't changed you've just got to read a different horoscope. The one corresponding with the time you were born on the new chart(see below...).

You were born into a sign at that time and nobody can change the past! (take that astrology!!)

For those born 2009 and beyond this new astrological time table will have to apply. From now on this will be the new standard in which all babies will be born under. Unfortunately with time it will stick and nobody will remember the old ways. Time to accept the new chart and move on, but nothing can change what you know in your heart!! I was born a LEO and I'll die a LEO!

In case you missed it: This is the new chart

BT dubbs the new sign is pronounced OFF-FOH-uh-cuss

The New Zodiac

ARIES = APRIL 19 - MAY 13

TAURUS = MAY 14 - JUNE 19

GEMINI = JUNE 20 - JULY 20

CANCER = JULY 21 - AUG 9

LEO = AUGUST 10 - SEPTEMBER 15

VIRGO = SEPTEMBER 16 - OCTOBER 30

LIBRA = OCTOBER 31 - NOVEMBER 22

SCORPIO = NOVEMBER 23 - NOVEMBER 29

OPHIUCHUS = NOVEMBER 30 - DECEMBER 17

SAGITTARIUS = DECEMBER 18 - JANUARY 18

CAPRICORN = JANUARY 19 - FEBRUARY 15

AQUARIUS = FEBRUARY 16 - MARCH 11

PISCES = MARCH 12 - APRIL 18

This is Shu -Mu Made into vegatable chips. Buttery, crispy, and delicious. they only come around during the New year. Everyone loves these here in Malaysia.

This got me thinking about how In America we can get anything, anytime. but here food here has seasons. Mangosteen season, Rambutan, Durian, Longans all come at different times of the year. It's true you REALLY DO love something more when it's gone. (and here the fruit goes fast!)

As i was eating my chips and thinking about how I never really want anything because i can always go and get it at the market. We have an oversupply so much so that It doesn't even really matter what we eat anymore.

You know how when you and your friends get together and are all hanging out and then someone says,"Hey, lets go eat!" The next question is,"Where?" In some cases this could take hours to decide. We don't really want anything, we just want to eat. But, something in our minds wants something really awesome. But nothing is awesome cause we can get everything, anytime we want. We've taken for granted the wonders of capitalism and the ability to get whatever we want....and we savour and appreciate nothing.

Thats all for now I'm gonna go munch on my once per year chips =) bye all!

What kind of food do you miss?

Everyone's sick

So I got super sick like 2 days after new year =( ate some bad noodles i think.

I got like nonstop burps like i was burping out my demons and sins of the past year it was rediculous i feel better tho clearer in the head now that before.

I've started writing a dream journal it's pretty neat only thing is getting up to put pen to paper.

I've always found my dreams to be of particular interest as i've been able to control what happens and what i do by what I assume is willpower.

also started a list of things to do when back in the states to get my mind off these things and focus on whats on had right now. which has become somewhat of a problem.

One thing I've noticed...This culture doesn't trust people. people have become untrustworthy, a man's word or earnest honesty isn't worth much these days. Where did this come from? More importantly can we learn to trust again? or is it too late?