Behind your Eyes

The notion of a "World View" never really came into my mind until I recently, picked up a book called the Autobiography of a Yogi.

I know what your thinking...ok,yoga, spirituality some stretching and a few meditations.

hippy.

But what I found was surprising the parallels between Christianity and Hinduism leading me to seemingly blur the lines as to what people are really believeing. Some say we are what our parents were. In my case this seems to not be true as neither of my parents really pushed me into any religion but they did send me to a Christian school so I suppose that had some kind of effect on me. But, as I read this story of Paranhansa's life it became clear to be he believes what I believe but how can this be so? A lifetime of Bible classes has taught me Be a Christian or Burn, all other religions are false....yada.yada.yada.

Ignore the words, ignore the "Titles." remove the confusion of...language.

It seems to me when a human closes his eyes and reaches out to a Being greater than himself isn't he praying just like anyone else that prays?

This yogi born in a different time, different place, and of a different "religion" believes in the same core values that Jesus taught. To be Christ-like...isn't that what my teachers had thumping into my head this whole time? Here I see someone NOT Christian yet exemplifying Christ in all he does, earnestly seeking God's face.

Whats wrong with this picture?????

Yeah, i'll wait.

Nothing. Their methods seemingly different but are they really? A closer look and taste has me looking at Hinduism as the same candy bar in a different wrapper written in different language. And as I've come to know it God reveals Himself to all people in his own way.

The question posed so often is if missionaries haven't reached the depths of African tribes yet will they all go to hell? my guess is probably not. God is all around us. Through reading this life story I saw that the more he searched for God the more he found that God was inside of himself the entire time in the form of the soul.

A quote from the book, "We are not bodies whom have a soul, we are souls whom have a body."

Now, the idea of a soul is hotly debatable but outside the debate what do you actually believe if you take a moment...To close your eyes...are you just a super animal? Can you see that we are much greater than just a bipedal beast? Designed to be this way? Do not compare me, a Human Being, to a monkey who managed to learn sign language and can press some blocks like a hairy babe. The soul created in the reflection of God's own image is what makes Man truly Man not just a highly evolved ape.

Ask anyone who has ever really taken the time and effort to seek God you will find that those that have sought have found and those that have found believe w/o doubt against all that the "information" that is flying around the internet and word of mouth. If God be real it is of the utmost importance, if not then then we are purposeless, no better than beast and so let anarchy rein.

I encourage those who might be curious take a moment to reflect and determine whether these issues are of importance to you.

I know most prefer to remain in a state of uncertainty, thinking ignorance will save their soul. but as the reaper comes for us all and NOONE can avoid the eventual end of the proverbial road. Are we merely going thru life looking thru the windows merely "Killing Time."

That statement for has taken on an entirely different meaning for me now.

I came into the world penniless and I shall leave penniless. Of what value are a few paltry dollars and a handful of toys in the end?

Whats behind your eyes? leave me a note if you actually read all that lol sry for lengthy post....alot on my mind...

Free Time

Some have alot some have none. But is our free time being wasted? For those will very little we see this time as precious something to be savoured and taken advantage of. For those with too much free time they spend their days whiling away on their facebook addictions and facebook applications. Time spend somewhere else instead of presently.

Text messaging? everyone minute of everyday invaded by a attention whore, begging you "Check Me!", but what about the people your already with? as you interrupt a current conversation to jump into another one with someone who isn't even there! I find this repugnant. (lol, pinky and the brain anyone?) No, alright...the technology revolution is a blessing to humanity keeping us in touch with one another with an ease and constant not know before. It's time we bring our behaviour in sync with the present times if we are to master our worlds.

Control your devices and use it for positive things. Be mindful of the Time you have, because you can't get it back once it's gone.

luv that harmonica

I don't know why i don't do what i love.

Am i really that lazy?

i dunno some thing must be wrong with my head i'm so glad i got my harmonica back.... mebee time to do some yoga keep the stretch alive...

I'm actually fairly sick of facebook seeing all my friends everydfay living their lives apart from mine just makes me sad i should be focusing on what i'm doing now but it sucks i'm in front of the computer all day.

Its so easy to see what everyone is up to...

perseverance and hard work gotta put in work i want to make the most of this time... time beef up my chinese and malay.

Singapore! pictures to come later

I've been living in Malaysia for 4 months now. my visa is about to expire so i'm somewhat forced to go somewhere out side of Malaysia my options are singapore or thailand i opted for singapore since I had never been there.

So i'm here and I have essentially no plan. Just a bit of background research on a few hostels that i had heard of and what I've seen on tv i don't really know where i wanted to go or what i wanted to really do drinking is expensive here for a pint it's about 12 -14 or more sing dollars which US conversion is about 1-1 ratio there are inexpensive options but anywhere somewhat nice it'll be quite pricy defiantly gotta have some money to play hard here. i'm trying to lay low and see what i can see for cheap or free.

Today i spent the day hanging out with an aussie and a irishman it was a blast laughing doing crazy things at sentosa island resort very fancy place too expensive for me to truly get the most out of it but we went to universal studios singapore i haven't been to universal studios in ages and ages. i'm just having some fun letting loose a bit.

The aussie is a fun guy little dumb but i learned alot from him he's got the right idea girls like guys who play it dumb after meeting him i figured out why...oh well. i'm not gonna try to be him or change myself just change my attitude gawd why does my mind run a mile a minute i need to slow down...fuck it.

Here In malaysia

There is no code of conduct.

remeber when you were in grade school and on the walls of every class room there was the codes of conduct don't do this don't do that basic social norms that we had engrained into our minds for so long it's a part of us.

Yeah...that doesn't apply here.

Things are wacky and crazy and backwards here. Things are never in your favor even when you'd think they should be.

people give up easily here. You ask for something they will usually say they don't have it. But if you look hard enough you'll probably find what your looking for on your own. It will take some searching and time.

eg: i was in a supermarket buying booze and coke those two were in the same area then i asked for ice they said "sorry, no ice" it's a GROCERY store of course theres ice!!! 20 minutes later we found the ice and went on our merry way. But instead of saying don't know where the ice i'll call somebody who does know it's acceptable to just say no.

It's frustrating at times but i just have to say to myself you get used to it and do your business better.

Yoga

so i've made a new commitment to try to do yoga every morning so far it's day 3 and its been going swimmingly i'm feeling pretty good. The nice stretch are unlocking alot of energy inside my body i'm feeling awake and alert.

What inspired me to try to do yoga every morning?

I recently read something that said yogas true meaning was the union of mind and body and i said to myself, i want that.

So here i am and it feels good to be alive.

The World Was Black & White

So tonight I was outside watching the rain.

I thought to myself I love the rain....

Then I was thinking about rainbows and how in the Bible God sent Noah a sign, a rainbow, as a promise He would never flood the earth like that again.

Rainbows are created by light refracting off the water droplets in the air creating this amazing effect.

If that was the first rainbow then before that time rainbows never existed. and the colors of the rainbow might never have existed.

if rainbows couldn't form either it never rained, or before then light never produced color only light and dark, never color.

And if color did exist before the flood then how come nobody ever saw a rainbow after the rains? if the light was the same and refracted off the raindrops a rainbow should appear.

I'm not really sure what this all means I just thought I'd share.

Wake up America!

after reading this article, I've come to understand where our society is headed.

I see the larger picture.

This is all part of the inevitable we had the hard working americans that came out of the depression, they taught their kids the value of money. But, then with the deregulation of the stock market and people started getting rich quick coupled with television music stars living the glamourous life that we all wanted.

You ask yourself why not me?

We developed a different sense of what success is.

T.I. rapping about you can have what ever you like? Yeah, I wish I could say that but lets keep it real, I can only afford to get you McDonalds girl!

After consecutive crashes dot com, tech bubble, and eventually the housing bubble, we have finally come to terms that we were fed a lie and that wealth does not come easily in the real world one must work for it.

who do you think taught the average american to feel victimized? the goverment and judicial system allowing insurance pay outs they knew where outlandish claims, the government bailing out business and investors, and homeowners.

Spare the rod, Spoil the child.

This is the kind of policies that people just won't vote for because they know if they do things will get tough and they might have to sacrifice (oh no!) and take responsibility for their own actions!

In recent times i've seen many articles describing the changes in our culture today. We are finally realizing that life isn't like the movies where you go from rags to riches in 128 minutes.

I hope with this article and ones like it will bring into the american consciousness that you must work harder than you ever thought you had to to achieve your dreams. We live in a society of haters that seek to bring others down to their level when anyone tries to rise out of it.

Then are those that try to climb out, but at the first obstacle are discouraged by what seems like an impassable barrier and the crowd around them watching and waiting for you to make a mistake.

Let me tell you one thing your not perfect, but neither is anybody else.

As part of human nature we see others and we wish we could be like them why can't you just be yourself?

Who told you your not as good as somebody else?

I choose who i wanna be, what i like, what i want to do, what my favorite color is, everything. if you allow others to choose for you you'll never be happy. you'll always think why do i hate my life?

Oh right, it's because it isn't my life, i hate all this shit.

It's not easy to differentiate what you actually like and things you like because of others so they'll like you.

Me?

For years I tried to be different from everyone else, just to be different. But, I forgot that I was already different and I should have just been myself the whole time. It took me a long time and hours of self evaluation to discover what I've been suppressing for so long.

Give yourself a chance each person has a unique perspective when you see something needs to be done just do it you may think others see it too but they don't see it like you do. Don't ask around just go and do it if someone asks what your doing tell them to shut up and either help or GTFO.

Be with someone that makes you happy, do what makes you happy, it's just a different kind of normal.

Peace yall

Living the life.

The past 3 days have been pretty cool me and my cousin had the opportunity to meet the tiger trainer at tambun the lost world. Nathan asked us if we wanted to see the baby tiger of course we said yes! he was the cutest little guy he was very feisty and had the hugest paws. I got the pet him but he was still very wild, almost bit me! you never know where life is gonna take you, all i had to do is show up.

That night we go head down to participate in a local parade. We had made contact with a politician recently and he asked us to carry some flags in the parade. We ended up being the ones leading the entire procession sort of surreal i must admit but fun waving at all the people.

Next day, lazy Sunday I finally watched the movie kick ass suffice it to say that move kicked ass! I admire the directors honesty in making the film, very down to earth and relateble. The hero just a guy who wanted to live his dream not a bad hobby in my opinion a world. Imagine a world of heroes where the everyday person stands up for what they believe, instead of passively allowing their morales to be corrupted. Be the hero or your own life.

sorry guys

i've been negelecting my blog for awhile now i'll try to continue on.

lets play some catch up. I've recently completed my goal of jumping rope for 21 days recently. i've never actaully been able to stick to something that long before if i can do that i can do better than that. So I'm in malaysia starting to get lonely a bitch restless looking for hobbies excesise has taken a strong calling with nothing to do nobody to hang out with i feel at least i can do something for myself. I've picked up naked yoga and swimming working on my frog swim. i'm in a ongoing competition with my brother KC we've been going at it in everything always trying to top each other. I've never had this type of relationship with somebody it really is like he's my brother. I never get sick of hanging with him but... i need more. I feel my life is a bit lacking i'm too much into my own head the thoughts are starting to cloud up and overwhelm me. I have a personal journal i no longer frequently write in but still write sometimes. So i bought a harmonica that i play to my fish langkawi it's a chill beta fish. doesn't get all riled up today i'm gonna change his water when i get home looking dirty...btw if you want me to send you a letter give me your address and i'll try to write =) peace all

Ben franklin

so recently I've been thinking about Benjamin Franklin for some reason...so doing the only thing I know how to do is....I googled him =D wikipedia gave me an insight on his life....

turns out he was awesome! He invented things he read lots of books and was a humble printer he was a revolutionary but still and lead a good life.

He is a free mason.

a curious man and so many other things that it's not surprising he is one of the founding fathers of this country.
Where are the people like him now?
The people that are doing amazing things?
and why can't i be like them?
I'm not satisfied with the status quo I want to discover and learn but sometimes it seems as if everything is already known so why bother but I don't think were even close....but sometimes it's easier to just sit back and do nothing but i think that is what our culture our society wants us to do so many people have told me your crazy man calm down you can't do it or why do you have to challenge whats already established? i say! challenge it and don't look back and don't listen to the nay sayers ImmaBeME that is how you have to live if you truly want to experience life I don't intend on wasting this life or the lives of my friends i won't let them i encourage everyone to check out this list of 13 virtues that Ben Franklin adhered to in his life. He would focus on one of these each week and it was to the betterment of his life just being conscious of one of these traits will give you success don't try to do them all at once but focus on one at a time.

I'm gonna do EXACTLY this follow me if you dare.... =P

finding your calling

i've discovered the truth listen to yourself and you'll find it as well. Litterally and figuratively put your hand in front of your face as if you were talking to your hand. Can you hear the sound of your own voice? Listen to how you sound to others and maybe you'll understand why people might not understand what your trying to say.... because its the way you say it...

Drugs who wants some?

What constitutes a drug really? All prescription drugs were derived from nature right?, yet drugs in their more natural forms are banned and only very concentrated and controlled drugs are prescribed. Long lists of side effects that last for over half the commercial on tv they distract you with pretty pictures as they rattle off dozens of horrible side effects that you thought this drug was supposed to cure. Turn on your t.v. when a drug commercial comes on close your eyes and listen to what it really says.

coca was a leaf off a plant if you chewed it it would make you a bit more alert and energetic like caffeine which also comes from natural sources such as the cocoa bean, kola nut, and tea leaves. but once caffeine had been isolate we inject caffeine into our everyday life just like the pills on TV, only in concentrated, unholy forms. At every instance leaving us trapped in a room isolated from reality, But we all bought into it? they've got us, the tv is nothing but a shouting commercial. always telling us what is desirable, worthy, and worth our attention.

Look around, does anybody see an robotic world out there? All chasing money to buy that drug or that new car, or those new clothes to fullfill an empty life? An empty heart?

I do, I see you.

Fighting Myself in an Uphill Battle!

Have you ever had the feeling theres a war within yourself?

Suppressing it telling yourself it's not real?

I recently came to the realization that I've been fighting myself my entire life! Thanks to an insightful homie, I thought I was one way but turns out I was the complete opposite and I had been fighting my true nature and personality all this time.

Growing up Chinese in the Mexican hood, and then going to a almost all white christian private school my whole life has tweaked my sense of who I am and who I wanted to be. who knows what lies ahead of what changes are in store for my life this has been a big period of change.

Maybe it's just college?

and everyone goes through this? Well either way I'm going to enjoy it and trying to make the most of it in terms of personal growth.

I always can always trust my true friends to always tell it to me straight. I appreciate all of you =D

Why Black people are who they are....and why I'm the way I am.

Me hella oldz loll
Black people, or Niggas in America, are the way they are because that's how it's always been.
they've been poor their whole lives and their families lives, and their families lives ever since the slave days they've been living a painful existence in this country for hundreds of years being born into slavery living on the brink

It's best expressed in their music which by the way they live so close to the poverty line. the lyrics are exactly what they have been going though since the coming to Americas. Its the way they sing and play music it has the deep emotion in it echoed from the voices of their ancestors if you will....

I've also realized alot about my own family and where it's roots trace back to, turns out I'm part of the hui ethnic Muslim Chinese families my last name Ma is named after Mohammad the prophet. Back in the day probably before Christ my people probably mixed with the mogooorians. A famous "Ma" was the first to translated the Qu'ran into Chinese. Toooo crazy

MoOdie MouniR!

I had an entertaining conversation over txt with a stranger the other day. A few months ago he texted me out of the blue asking for a girl named Vanessa I told him sorry dawg you got the wrong number. Fast forward to now he must have been feeling lonely and decided to try to talk to this vanessa girl again FAIL. He gets me again! suckerrr lol coming back with the same vvvvaaaanneessaaa....haha bitch. I proceed to dick smash his pride here's the conversation enjoy =)

His name is Mounir and he probably hangs out at the den of douches in Los Gatos Mnt. Charlies lol

Saturday, September 5th, 2009 9:23pm

Mounir: LG??

We briefly exchanged words and
I was the clingy one that followed you around
remember???

Wednesday, September 9th, 2009 1:19 pm

Mounir: Vanessssa....

Hey...missed you while I was stalking
the bars in Los gatos hunt--I mean looking for you....

Me: I'm not vanessa haha

Oww Burned....

I dun have this number saved who is this?

This came from a 408 area code should
I give it to everyone
so you guys can dick smash too?

Mounir: mounir- if this isn't vanessa who is this?

even if i was a another girl
i'm definatly not going to talk to you now...

Me: hmm wrong number this is joe

Guess not!! Another mystery solved!
I was nice right?

5 Months later....

Mounir: Vanessssssaaaaa....

Me: hey faggot! vanessa gave you a fake number your a douche!

Mounir: Hahhaha easy there cussing cathy. Go eat a twix or something. i'll text you again in a week, and call you vanessa. don't talk like that to someone u don't kno, might end up bad for u. God bless America homie. take a few riddlin

Me: no...I know who you are your that loser who txted me a few months ago looking for a girl who felt sorry for you

Mounir: Easy Joe, easy....

And it's "you're" not "your". did you attend the 3rd grade?

Me: oh did you want me txt you in MLA format? didn't realize I was writing an essay... This girl must have figured out you had a stick up your ass. grammer correction PLEase.

Mounir: Easy Joe...I'll warn you to stop that talk now. Last warning bitch

Me: oh I'm sorry did I hurt your feelings? I just thought you needed more clarification. Last time you asked I apprently wasn't clear enough for you. Get it now moody mounir?

Mounir: Hey brother-if your trying to settle something or have some security issues deep inside that causes an ignorant person like yourself to act like a girl you are and want to fight- let me kno when and where, it's your funeral. Otherwise check yourself homie. don't text back unless you have a place and a time ur trying to settle your little girl issues.

Me: k

Don't you just hate that?

I'll be adding more commentary shortly lol
If you happen to be in Los Gatos please look around for a durka durka named Mounir. It would make my day if you took a picture with him and called him moody mounir in person for me =) Good will hunting! YES!

A Conversation on Facebook....

This is a conversation i just had with my homie back up north we're both Chinese, grew up in San Jose, Ca.
We were talking a bit about this blog and i was telling him who I wanted to reach out to and i just started spittin' out what I've been trying to communicate to the world, breaking stereotypes and hoping for people to see Us for who I really am.

1:58am Me

i'm probably gonna be targeting people like you and me

not to offend but seemingly underachieving asian kids who's parents have brought them up to think they have to be something awesome and make lots of money like a doctor or else they are failures i'm here to tell them fuck all that thats not how life really is

This is what kryptology is all about.

1:58am My Homie

sho

1:59am Me

i'm not saying i'm a failure or you are but in the eyes of society sometimes i feel like one

1:59am My Homie

wurd

1:59am Me

like what the fuck? do they really expect me to be a doctor?

i know i'm smart i just haven't found what i want to do it's not like i want to be a bum and never do anything with my life

it's just i don't know what

2:01am My Homie

yea

speakin to the choir

2:02am Me

see what I mean? I know I'm not the only one

theres thousands

especially in the bay area

we grew up with all these things expected of us yet we don't meet any of those "expectations"


Let me hear YOU if you know what I'm saying?!

Romatic Comedies

Today I watched 3 romantic comedies; What happens in Vegas, Yes man, and a comedy with a romantic element....Bill and Ted's bogus journey. ALL three had happy endings but how rarely do these events actually happen in real life? Yet...they are depicted as if this was real life. The absurd situations, the dramatic way they fall in love, the horrible break ups, which usually are a sad state of circumstances rather than anybody's actual fault....

The guy is usually clueless about what happened and blames himself because the woman blames him, it's not really his fault it's her fault! She's crazy and thinks everything should be perfect.
We live in an imperfect world where things like fairy tales don't happen. i'm not saying we can't be happy I love life and desire to live it to the fullest. All I want is somebody who understands that we're all just trying to get through life as best as we can manage and incorporate as much happiness as one can feasibly and forget about the rest...does that make sense to anyone?
I think Bill and Ted said it best, "Be good to each other, and party on!"

The Perfect World

Nature's Emoti-con

Today, I discovered Planet Earth a magical place full of things to discover and amazing, delicate eco-systems. Discovery channel Sundays rock! What a pity none of the other creatures on this earth can truly appreciate the beauty of nature and the diversity it has. Humans are the only animal that is truly self-aware. This allows for objective observation and analysis, which then becomes information which we use to reason with.

I believe we were put on this earth to appreciate it's beauty and the precise intricacies of creation. It's like if I made an elaborate dinner, spending all day preparing it and there was nobody to eat it but me, what a waste. What other animal travels just to see something awesome like a water fall or pick flowers into a bouquet?

When I think of the bigness of our world and how small you and I really are, I see that we're a small dot in the grand scope of recorded history. We are all given 24 hours each day in which we all live simultaneously spending it as we please. This time we can never get back nor save for the future. all we can do is embrace it and spend it wisely. Unfortunately with the pervasive intrusion of technology (more on this later) we find ourselves spending less and less real face time with people. What we're doing instead is wasted on consuming things we don't need to impress people we don't care about...

I want to inspire people to become more self-aware and think critically. Take a look at the modern world around you!! Should you believe what the media and society is telling you to do, to be?? Wake up!! We're all moving through life together in the same time, lets try to make it a journey worth living.